At a young age, I learned how to lie... and I learned how to do it really well.
From little white lies about my homework, to manipulating people I cared about, to the big lies that hid my addiction from everyone around me.
Since getting sober, I've been working on trying to be a better person. Lying had become second nature to me so it's been a major adjustment trying to be honest when possible.
Before I left good ol' Roslyn, PA, I opened up to someone I cared about.
I spent a lot of time thinking about it as I drove across the country, the Philadelphia skyline fading into the background of my mind. I kept thinking how much it sucked to open myself up like that just to be let down and if it would've been better just to have kept it to myself.
But I couldn't keep thinking that.
At the end of the day, it was so much better to put it all on the line because I would've drove myself nuts thinking about all of the what ifs.
I guess if there is anything to take away, it's this: try to be as honest as possible, even when it hurts a little to do it. You'll thank me later.
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